Unhidden love - I want that too

I’ve been sort of single now for the past 4 months after a long 4 years together. It was a weird relationship but I enjoyed certain moments of it. We were semi-private so there were certain things we couldn't do in public, like hold hands, look at each other compassionately, go to the theatre, never went to the ballet, when we hung out in public it was always as friends so we kept it all friendly in that sort of way.


This past week had me thinking about a lot of things about my life, I have a silly habit of getting into agreements that alter what I think of life, love and relationships, also editing Phumlani's article on love for JHBSTREETMAG hit home with me.

I'm about to fully experience being single, i'm not even afraid of that as I was when I broke things off, i've let go of the past relationship and its conditions and for the next relationship if it happens, I don't want what I had with my ex,

• I want to experience love in all it's glory.

• I want to be able to hold on to them when I'm at a mall and freaking out because of too many people.

• I want to dress up, go to the ballet and theatre to watch a performance or two.

• I want to love fully and be loved with the same passion.

• I want that person that will understand that i'm not perfect and never will be...


• I want to be the first thing someone thinks about in the morning when they wake up and the last thing they think about before they sleep.

• I want those lunch dates, those, sweet texts and those random calls.

• I want to be able to send texts, make those after a long day calls just to share moments experienced.

• I want to be a normal girl, get told how beautiful I am, even when I’m at my lowest or when I feel like death.


• I want that shopping partner, who hates going to malls but will do it anyway because they love you.

• I want to spend a saturday indoors enjoying each other’s company with no care to what the rest of the world is up to.

• I want to experience a soccer/ cricket game not because I love the game but because I love the person who loves those games.

After the last relationship I have realized that I am too much of a girl. There are things I want and there are things I don't want, I know however that I want that Unhidden love, that "how is your crazy self doing today kind of love"

With the past relationship we spent too much time keeping it private, dealing with frustrations, pretending to be just friends, managing the terms and conditions that came with the union and less time enjoying the moments with each other.

I want that relationship where people know of us but know nothing about us...

My brand spanking hot Facebook page

So about 7 days ago I updated my Facebook profile by converting it to a page.


Ok to be honest Management did it because it would "make it easy" for me to get social again via Facebook, see the problem was that I no longer loves Facebook and didn't use it the way I used to use it, like it became just another account that gets on my nerves, and being a temperamental person already I just stayed away. There were a number if things I hated! Like the chat option, the layout and and well most of everything .

So I am happy to have shifted to a page and I'm happy that I'm slowly falling in love with Facebook all over again

My week thus far as a Facebook pager- I think this is awesome I can only grow from this point on... Yes? Yes!!!

STYLE LUST | Elbeth Gillis's Daniella Dress

The Daniella is a tea-length dupion silk and Alencon lace dress with a ribbon bow trim in the waist. The whimsical box pleated skirt includes pin tuck and lace detailing, and even has some hidden pockets!

This is a dress for the modern bride. Tea-length dresses are a strong trend for this season and is perfect for a more informal or day-time wedding. The beautiful Alencon lace adds detail to the bodice and hem that is subtle and suitable for daytime dress. The shape is flattering on most figures and will emphasise a small waist, while the bow detail and pockets add a playful touch to this style.

Elbeth was inspired by the shape of the “prom” dresses from 50′s and early 60′s. This fun dress make any bride feel comfortable and exuberant on her wedding day.

Styled Moments In Fashion

So I had one of those weekends spent with my ex-girlfriend, and we decided to hit the market! I dressed up punkish and I loved it.

Her and I are like soul mates, after some time of wondering why it didn't work, i realized that she kinda pulls out the best and worst of me, to much of everything can be toxic for the heart, body and mind.

We hang out but I can say without a doubt that our paths only will cross on a plutonic level of understanding, she understands me and I understand her, she is my first love and the passion was there, I just now know that just because on completes you that does not make them right for you all the time with the idea of moving on, I'm still two-headed about it as I sometimes look at her and the of the many good times we have had along with the heated moments of anger we have shared...

She is fucked up in the head and so am I sometimes, but I am now learning that it is best we stay friends before we end up killing each other, I'm also not in the mood for the drama that kept occurring while we were still together... Now whenever shit creeps up, I just shrug it off because it is not my place to say or even ask questions ... This is what I am learning to understand and deal with. Sharing some moments with her that have nothing to so with our past relationship are really becoming fun days out with a close friend.

The Look
* Hat ( Lisa's closet)
*Zara Blazer
* Two in The Shirt Vest (TITS)
* Lisa Denims ( woolworths)
* legit shoes

look of the day.. From February

So I don't post much anymore... And I feel like a Shithead for that... So here I post.

This was a randomly planned look of the day for some day in February, I know it's late AF but fashion in my head is somewhat timeless.

Awkward yea??? I think so too.

Fashionable regards
Tanki Em

In my head...

I don't have much to say yet... Still in a dark twilight zone.

Feel free to click on the topbilling tab and the CPTSTREETMAG tab.

Fashionable regards
Tanki Em